Current mood:

happy

Sometimes I feel like it's not fair for me to be this in love. Like I never kharmically did anything to deserve it and one day he's going to wake up and realized he has just been deluded by lots of sex and good cooking and fun times and playing magic and realize he is not really all that in love with me.

But I know that's silly, and I usually don't think things like that. We have such great times and it's weird loking at this guy who I used to think of as a little boy and realize how if I wasn't so crazy maybe we could've been even sooner. But I know that everything happened at the right time because I was pretty insane most of the time we have known each other. I am still now, but I think it's more the kind of crazy that works with being in love a lot better.

No one has ever loved me so much for who I am and given me so much room to breathe when I needed it and known when I needed to be held as close and tight as possible.

I can't wait for the semester to end so we can sleep in every day together and stay up later then we mean to every night without feeling guilty about homework.

<3